3AM Thoughts: What is Next?



The struggle is real, it’s really hard to maintain a blog. You need time to write and conceptualize about it, to proofread read it (I am not doing this, do not copy) and revise it. I normally do what is on my mind and publish it. That is why sometimes, even I do not know what I am talking about when I visit my blog.

The struggle is real.

It’s exactly 3:20 am in the Philippines and its summer time and it’s hot even in mornings.

What is Next? There are a lot of incoming events and projects in the coming months. We already activated our internet connection for the longest time we only rely on mobile data and it is good to know that we already have a working internet connection, it is not that reliable all the time but it is working.

The election is also coming, and I will not discuss it here, who I will vote.


I am 50% set for my online endeavours. I am just completing the blanks. More of the details on that in the coming days, the road to online life (again).

Me and my wife also half completing the seminar for Couples for Christ community in our church. I am very excited on this one since we have at least time to learn something more about our faith/religion, this some real talk we have here.

I am doing well with my work also. Though it’s becoming tiring at some point but if I will not do this, who will? I am building up for something big in the organization, looking forward that I would pass the “internship”. Though it is not formally announced but it is something near to that situation.

There are a lot of juicy details that will be uncovered in the coming weeks and I am very optimist that I will pull it off correctly this time.

Hopefully I can set my priorities right and onward to the success. It will be dentist day tomorrow so I shall go to bed. 3:32AM and end.

A Sudden Rush to The Head

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It’s really quite some time that I logged my last post. I never been to such on the web side these past few years. I have been busy working on with the family life and the work that I have been doing since 2013.

I moved from a web developer to an ABAP programmer. ABAP is a native programming language in SAP. We do mostly support work to the existing HR system we have.

It just struck me to write something. What I have done this past 2 years?

It just felt I was left behind with the technologies in the web. Though the system we maintain is a web app most of its backbone code are done in SAP. Though still in the cloud computing industry, the adrenaline rush of having a web application from scratch is such a liberating experience. On the other hand, solving problem as a support, would give thrills as well.

I still wanted to do developer work, I just need to find time on my very busy schedule at home on how to squeeze those activities, and there goes the alibis. My last post here was something about Symfony, that did not quite blossom in the early stages. Before I got to insert another alibi for myself, I would rather create a few pledges that I need to work on this coming year.

I am thinking of being conscious of my health. My lower body is really a pain in the eyes and a pain in my system, it would really hurt my back a lot. So I need to reduce on the tummy part. I need to cut that giant bulge, I missed my feet already.

Designing, I need to have a concern to the industry that I became my bread and butter. If I can mentor in the office, sure I can inspire others. Besides from joining some discussions on the user groups on facebook, well, I need to inspire others by creating something awesome.

I need to finish something that I started doing. I just need to finish the task, it doesn’t matter if I got paid, I just need to finish, I need to deliver what is supposed to be delivered and document it!

These are just some things I need to prepare myself from. Hopefully I will not be distracted, just focus and put the game face on.

A Journey of a Shepherd We Called Francis



Almost every Filipino blogger would be writing a blog post about the Papal Visit, well this is not it. Let’s say a strange post about faith for those people that is either an non-believer or still torn to the separation of the organization and faith within Catholics. Do not get me wrong this is not a hate post either. It’s more aligned to the realization after the Papal visit.

In my lifetime he is the Pope that actually went down to see the people, technically he governs, but not. Anyways, at first I did not know that he will actually go to the Visayan region and meet the people that would really need his help now. For the most people that gone there to help, actually the Pope is the only person that sincerely helped them. He just nails it to every hearts of the people there which is very important motivation to the people there that has nothing. Catastrophe after catastrophe, typhoon in, typhoon out these people really experienced everything and I rant and complain that the traffic is heavy in Ortigas, I am so insensitive. What is awesome there? None, but on that very spot the airport is filled with hearts that are pure. Reflect on that.

Why did the Pope say learn how to weep? learn how to cry? He also challenges us to receive. That will be against the immortal saying – It’s better to give than to receive, but he answered that quite vague. I can’t actually quote him but I understand that giving is just the same of receiving, receiving with humility. Today, we wear a lot of mask and maybe we see people give away since it was the spirit of Christmas that drives them but giving away is equally important to be able to receive something from a person that you do not expect or from a complete stranger. Today people refuse to receive gifts that people are too proud to receive something.

He challenge also the crowd to cry, to weep. The point came from a girl that was a street children before now lives in the orphanage. The girl asked why there are a lot of children suffers? And Pope answered her with a hug with a blessing. The girl cried and cried and fill that very stage with her emotion. The Pope challenge everyone to cry and weep, in this age and our lifetime people are afraid to cry. We are distracted with earthly things and activities that diverts our sadness to a temporary happiness but in the end of the day, are you really happy? My interpretation of his challenge was, be with the world and feel your weakness and seek who really loves you most, who really makes you happy?